October 27, 2011 - 1:40pm
I'm so lost and i don't really know what to do. I'm 21 years old. Was a full blown addict at the age of 15 and that continued untill i was 20. I went to rehab and was in recovery for a year until recently. I have a full time job, a part time job, go to school, attempting to have a relationship and keep my friends. This seems like life to most people and something that comes easy but for me i find it a struggle everyday. I am not diagnosed with anything but I am pretty sure i would test positive for ADD, depression and anxiety. I truely believe that my mental state is the reason that i chose/choose to do drugs. I am always going a mile a minute and nobody can ever keep up. Physically its taking a toll on me....mentally nobody even knows.... It cripples every part of my life and drugs, i thought, were the way to escape. I don't know if i can even get put on meds because I am on probation. I've contemplated checking myself in but everybody around me thinks i'm doing so well with everything. I'm lost, confused and desparate for help. How do i go about getting help for the craziness in my head. I do have my first doctor appointment next week. I haven't been to the doctor in 4 years. How do i tell them I need help? please somebody....