November 25, 2014 - 9:49am
I have been married for 7 years to my husband. We got divorced about 2 years ago and then we got remarried. The last year has been worst than it ever was. He constantly yells at me, blames me for everything, tells me I am overreacting when he puts me down or that it was just a joke. We are having money issues and I am to blame because I got a different job. It doesnt pay as much as my other one (not that much difference really) but he told me it was okay to do it. It doesn't matter that he just spends money we don't have. I have to ask permission to spend my own paycheck and if I do get something it be groceries or whatever I have to explain why I got it. And heaven forbid I get cash out. He has to know down to the dollar where I spent it. It has gotten to the point that my kids (his stepkids) can't stand him and hate how he treats me. It is like they are losing respect for me. And I have noticed he has started treating my 13 year old daughter the same way. I feel stuck. I don't have the money or the means to leave. He controls it all. I pray every night that God not let me wake up and have even thought of ways to end my life but realize that it is selfish because my children need me right now. He makes me feel like I am going crazy. He tells me how awful I treat him and how horrible I talk to him. I will admit I don't always talk to his sweetly and sometimes not at all but it will either cause a fight or the silent treatment. Any advice would be so helpful. I am only 39 years old. I don't want to do this for the rest of my life.