Hi, I am new to this but, I am a very private person and I need some support dealing with a husband I have been loyal to for 20 years... he was the love of my life. He was my first and only man that I been with. I found out a year ago that he had a second cell phone and had been cheating on me for the whole 20 years.. .. i could have died and inside I did. It has been hell after the deception. I don't trust him, respect him and half way love him but, I have no where else to go and not enough finance to leave with my two small kids.... I'm just so sad.....he brought home herpes but, I don't have it!!!! We have sex with a condom, I can't go nowhere without him...i feel stuck and alone... crying all day and night.... he had pics of nasty naked hoes on his phone, he was paying for sex from hoes he meet online... he talked abut me behind my back.....im just done....lost for words... he also had pics of his Dick on the his phone. .. i just couldn't believe it!!! But, he won't send them to me....