I tend to be very hard on myself. Part of this has to do with my strict upbringing and the other half has to do with my relentless nature.
After a successful career, I decided to enroll in the Harvard Extension School.
For some reason, I started feeling like the main character in the novel and movie ʺEat, Love, Pray.ʺ I stopped learning and needed an injection of challenging knowledge to jump start my temporary stalled creativity.
So, why not enroll in a school which offers one of the best educations with many of the nation’s top professors? My goals were to expand my brain power and complete the class with a higher than passing grade but walk away with a plethora of new knowledge.
The Harvard experience was brutal beauty. I had to discipline myself all over again and I had to balance home life, work and school.
When you enter college after high school, you generally only have to balance two out of the three. But now, I have the added bonus of managing a household, husband and very needy yet adorable dog.
I have always had a voracious appetite for reading. So, the reading assignments were fairly simple and class participation was a non-issue. The grade was based on the following criteria:
• 30 percent classroom participation
• 30 percent mid-term paper
• 40 percent final paper
My first major hurdle was the mid-term paper. The main thing holding me back from writing the paper was the fear of failure. I was afraid I would get an average grade.
But, once I mentally pushed myself over the failure speed bump, I began writing my mid-term paper. My sense of failure leveled off and I earned a B.
I was devastated and choked up when I read the critique because I felt I had failed. After crying my eyes out and beating myself up mentally, I realized, I was being too hard on myself.
I received a Harvard B not a C. My B grade was not a failure but a starting point.
From this point, I can build and I can succeed. So with this new-found energy, I decided to learn from my mistakes and work my arse off.
To make a long story short, I received an A- on my final paper.