Sometimes it’s easier to simply not know. Often we choose to live in question, rather than knowing the truth.
And it BOGGLES my mind.
Despite all the advances in technology and research, some people just don’t want to be told something could be wrong with their health. Been there. Done that. I used to tell myself it would have been much better to not have found out I have a heart co ndition so that I could have just lived a regular life …but who knows what could have happened had I not followed through with diagnosis and treatment?
It takes an extreme amount of bravery to squarely look yourself in the mirror and want to know everything going on inside of you. It takes even more courage to make the appointment to know for sure if you are healthy. No one wants to experience that moment of bad news. No one wants to be told they are no longer invincible. The truth is, though, that even more so no one wants a knock on their door telling them someone they loved has passed away unexpectedly.
My sophomore year of college I was instructed to write an essay about an important personal experience that changed my life. In my assignment, I explored the moment I was diagnosed with LongQT Syndrome while in high school. I intensely illustrated every sensation I felt during that moment I was told I have a heart condition that could unexpectedly claim my life at any moment, intricately describing my emotions and the way they played out over the weeks that followed. The following class my professor “published” our essays into a packet and distributed everyone’s writing project to each other. It was fun to check out my peers’ important experiences and develop a deeper understanding for the people they were.
That night at 9:30 I got a knock on the door to my dorm room. There stood Ashley, the girl who sat two seats behind me in class. The essays were in her hand, and tears were streaming down her face.
“This is me,” she sobbed. “Your story is my story.”
For the next hour she told me that in high school they suspected she had LongQT Syndrome because she had passed out during crew season several times.