Darkina, who is HIV positive and seven months pregnant, explains if she is worried about her child contracting HIV.
So I am seven months pregnant. I have two more months to go. From what the doctors have told me, I am going to deliver naturally. T-cells are good, virus is undetectable. One little fear that I do have because I have to be, in case my water breaks. If my water breaks I have to go to the emergency room immediately because the baby is no longer covered at that point.
That is a fear of mine. With my other two children, they always had to break my water but just because I am HIV positive I don’t know if it’s going to go that way this time. So that is a fear. It’s not a big fear and it’s not a big stressor. I trust in my doctors and most of all I have trust in god. Most of all, I trust in god.
Every now and then it crosses my mind, you know, will HIV develop in the baby in the long run? But again, HIV is if you treat it, and you take care of it, and you do as prescribed you should be fine. The baby has to go and take different treatments after he is born because he is having his own immune system. So that’s one of my fears but not a big fear, not a big stressor.
I am determined not to stress because I do understand that that’s not good for my disease. So, am I invincible and I don’t stress it all? No, that’s not what I am saying. I am just saying I don’t try to make it a big part of my life. Anything that’s very stressful for me, that’s really, really stressful, I get rid of it. I don’t care who it is, what it is – I get rid of it. I can’t tolerate it, not going to tolerate it. I eliminate it from my life.