When my husband and I finally got pregnant, I just could not wait to be a stay at home mom. Well, I was wrong! Don't get me wrong, I love not having to work and I love being a mom, but now I live hours away from anyone I knew or cared about before I met my husband. Since I live so far from any of my family or friends, I have litterally spent no more that a few hours away from my daughter since the day she came home. My husband just can not fathom how I get to sit at home all day and still get depressed. Every other day I just can not stand the sight of my 9 month old baby! It's a horrible feeling that just leaves me feeling worse about myself. And I know I can't tell anyone that I want to just get rid of her sometimes because everyone will look at me like I'm a horrible parent! I tried asking my doc to put me on some kind of med. but no such luck... oh well I guess I'll just go crazy in the mean time.